sortinghat_logs | ~Forest of Depression~

I ain't going to jail. [But he settles a little, eyes going even further closed at that hand on his back, smiling a little at Karkat, a smile that doesn't quite reach his eyes all the way.] But I'll hold off, like you motherfuckin' said.

Anyway, weren't we playing a motherfuckin' game? Pick truth or a miracle dare, one of you!

[He takes note of the look in Gamzee's eyes but doesn't say anything about it. Instead, Karkat pulls his hand away and takes another swig of his drink, humming a little in thought.]

I got nothing.

[Tavros drinks some more too, trying not to dwell on the fact Gamzee would only 'hold off'. Because he didn't want his best bro killing anyone, ever...]

Okay, uh... let's see...Hmmm... Okay! I guess, uh, I pick d- no, uh, truth!

[Gamzee reaches out to ruffle his fingers softly through Karkat's hair.]

What do you think about when you're all, you know, having one off? Wanking? [He says it all easy as if it were no big deal.]

Edited 2012-03-25 08:57 (UTC)

[Even drunk, that question makes Karkat's drink spray from his mouth, dribbling down his chin a bit before he rubbed it with the back of his free hand, pulling it from where it had draped around Tavros's shoulder. What kind of fucking question was that?]

I...dunno. Tits I guess. I've...only done it once.

[Tavros flinches when drink sprays from Karkat's mouth. Because... ew, it kinda got on him a little bit! And has he wipes at it, he freezes, because Gamzee's question had time to sink in.]

...Uh. [Come on, liquid courage, work! He chugs at his cup for a second- okay, more like he just takes a big gulp.]

I...I, uh...Jade's boobs b-but that was, uh, just the one time! Because- because, I-I felt... I felt bad! And uh, I...I...Um, don't do it, uh, that often either...so, uh...yeah...

[Gamzee head drops, hiding his face again in all his hair, but he laughs. It sounds ... dryer, that usual, though, a little brittle.] Well, both you motherfuckers have almost the same answer, the itty bitty titty committee, so both of y'all can go next, I don't give a shit.

[Karkat has to doubletake when Tavros said he jerked off to Jade's boobs before remembering he wasn't her boyfriend anymore so he had no reason to get pissed at the Hufflepuff. At the sound of Gamzee's laugh, however, he frowns deeply before craning his head to press a kiss to the taller boy's mouth.]

Edited 2012-03-25 09:35 (UTC)

[Tavros heard a difference in Gamzee's laugh, but he just couldn't really place it, and it was quite possible that he was imagining it, so he decided not to bring it up. He was just about to propose the truth or dare question, when he looked up and saw Karkat going in for a kiss. His eyes went wide, and the question died in his throat.

He'll just... lay there, trying not to stare, letting them have their moment, while feeling oddly left out- wait, what? No, that was... that was silly.]

[The older boy was genuinely flummoxed for a few seconds, not quite sure what was happening when those lips pressed to his. Maybe because of the alcohol, or maybe because it seems a little inconceivable anyone would be kissing him now.

But he catches on pretty damn quick, and loops his arms around Karkat's neck, kissing him back slow and sweet and sloppy.]

[Karkat shifted a little so he was turned sideways to both of them, placing the hand holding his cup onto the bed to make sure nothing spilled before leaning on it, pressing himself slightly heavily against Gamzee.

He lifted his free hand to place it against the Slytherin's cheek, matching him kiss for kiss, sloppy in his own way.]

[That feeling of being left out was starting to grow uncomfortably. Tavros couldn't even tell you why he was feeling left out. Because they were kissing...! He... didn't want to do that. With them, anyway... He wanted to kiss Jade...! Or someone like her. But nobody would want to kiss him. He doubted even they would want to kiss him.

But despite that, he was feeling really left out still. Kind of annoyingly so, actually. How long did it take to kiss? He let a breath out of his nose that might have sounded impatient, and then brought the cup up to his mouth and drained it in a few swallows.]

Mmmf. [Yeah, that was definitely a throaty little whine to remind them that he was stiiiill there.]

[It takes a few moments for that whine to percolate into the hole-ridden sponge of Gamzee's brain. Pretty much every firing nerve cell is focused on the warm, wet lips against his, so vastly different from the first time they'd done it, when it had just been 'practice' for a girl. He has no idea why Karkat would want to kiss him, and doesn't care to examine it too closely, or else lose the joy of his tongue sliding against the younger boy's, the way it's o easy to tug in that smaller frame and draw him closer-

Oh. Wait, there was ...

He finally breaks the series of kisses, blinking at Karkat, his pupils huge and black in his already dark eyes. Then he turns his head to Tavros, and his expression is dazed, cheeks pink with color.] Shit, sorry ... guess a motherfucker just got carried away.

[His arms are still looped tight around Karkat, a mixture of possessiveness and nerves, as though he's afraid the Gryffindor'll slip way the moment he has a chance.]

[Honestly, Karkat had no idea why he'd started kissing Gamzee. Maybe it was the hollow laugh that made him feel pity for the older boy deep in his stomach. He just didn't know. Tavros's whine snaps him out of it, his mouth slightly opened when Gamzee pulls away. For a moment he stared up at him before turning his attention to the Hufflepuff, his own cheeks flushed.

He lowered his hand from Gamzee's cheek before he brushed his hand over the back of his neck, managing to find his voice.]

Hey. I'll kiss you.

[Tavros shrugged at Gamzee's words, not really quite sure what to say. He didn't mind particularly! But he also did kind of mind...sort of... he didn't know. It was weird, conflicting feelings that he didn't know how to explain.

But on Karkat's words, he actually gasps, before hurrying to clarify.]

Wh- no! I, uh, no! No, th- I, I didn't mean I wanted, uh, I- I was just kind of feeling left out, but- I mean! No! Uhhh, no, no, uh, not left out! I mean- it's not like anyone would, uh, want to kiss me anyway, y'know? So, uh, I- it doesn't matter! J-just, just forget it, okay! Both of you, uh, just f-forget it!

[There's a moment when Gamzee looks like someone slapped him, all the pleasant dazedness draining out of his face in a cold rush, like ice shoved down the back of his shirt. He turns his head hastily into Karkat's shoulder, hoping the two are so involved in what they're saying to each other that they're paying no attention to him, though his arms tighten around the Gryffindor for comfort.]

Karkat ain't a brother what offers things he don't be meaning. [He points out, voice slightly muffled from his hiding spot in his friend's shirt.]

[Karkat feels Gamzee bury his face in his shoulder and the arm around him tighten. He kind of got the feeling that the taller boy had a thing for Tavros but something...bad had happened between them? For the moment he shrugged it off, reaching to pull the Hufflepuff closer so that he didn't have to pull away from Gamzee. He tilts his head down and quite promptly presses his lips to Tavros's, if only to get him to shut up.]

[Tavros lets out an extremely surprised squeak when Karkat's lips are suddenly on his and his arms just kind of flail. Everywhere. The cup flies out of his hand and shatters on the floor, and his hands grasp at something, anything for support. They find purchase on Gamzee's shirt, though he doesn't realize it's Gamzee's shirt of all things.

With something to support himself, he pulls away from Karkat, pulling against Gamzee's shirt to steady himself. Only Gamzee is not exactly rooted to the spot, so Tavros ends up pulling him his direction. Tavros falls backwards onto the bed, Gamzee on top of him and then suddenly another pair of lips are on his before he can even realize what the hell happened.]

[It's kind of hard for Gamzee to appreciate the position he's in, while he's trying to flail himself and avoid knocking Karkat to the side while he figures out just when he got grabbed and hauled and OH MOTHERFUCK WHAT IS THIS SHIT, oh hey, damn.

He probably ... shouldn't be so happy to be kind of between Tavros's legs, and he does pull back from the unintentional lip squash, apologizing] Oh, shit, damn motherfucker, I'm sorry- [From about two inches away, looking kind of like he does want to kiss Tavros properly, and not quite able to let himself, booze or no booze.] Are you okay? I didn't impale you on nothing?

Edited 2012-03-25 11:30 (UTC)

[Karkat let out a surprised yelp when he was suddenly tossed from between the two of them, falling onto his back on the bed with his leg tangled with one of Tavros's useless ones. He couldn't see it from this angle but he knew the look Gamzee was probably sporting.

He rubbed his chin where he got hit by Tavros's flailing, smile curling across his mouth.]

Jesus, Nitram, it's just a kiss.

[Tavros stared up at Gamzee with wide eyes, his mouth slightly open and his heart pounded in his chest from the pure adrenaline of his little freakout. He hadn't meant to freak out like that, but he just- he hadn't expected it at all. It scared him! But now that he thought about it- he'd been kissed. He'd just had his first kiss with... with Karkat.

And his second- sort of- with Gamzee.

Okay that was definitely... confusing him. Because the more he thought about it, the more he... was just amazed that he'd been kissed for the first time in his life. And somehow it didn't really matter by who. Just that he'd experienced it. And with people who were his friends. That wasn't so bad! And a part of him wondered why it was even an issue who it was. He liked people! He liked everyone. Why... why did it matter, then?

But wow those kinds of thoughts were just kinda giving him a headache, so his mind blanked everything out and focused in on the fact he'd been kissed. And when Karkat spoke, it broke him from his thoughts and slowly a grin formed and he giggled.]

Uhh... haha, yeah! You're right, uh... sorry! Sorry about that, uh... I hope that I didn't hurt...anyone... [His eyes found Gamzee's and he trailed off.] Uh, I'm fine, you didn't... do anything. It was my fault, anyway... and also, uh... you have really soft lips. [Maybe he hadn't quite meant to say that out loud, but it definitely came out before he could stop it.]

Edited 2012-03-26 10:02 (UTC)

[Yeah, Tavros, that's not the kind of thing you say to a drunk dude with a crush on you ... you know that, right? Because what happens is he kisses you again, for real this time.

The Slytherin's lips are soft, or maybe they're just wet, it's hard to tell, and he's gently moving them against Tavros's, licking at the Hufflepuff's bottom lip, one hand coming up to stroke at the smaller boy's hair, along the side of his face. It's a sloppy kiss, but it's sweet and tender, too, and after a few moments, Gamzee pulls back, an uncharacteristic mix of worry and happiness on his face.]

Oh, woah, uh ... shit, sorry again. Pretty sure that one was my motherfuckin' fault.

[Karkat knew what it was like to kiss Gamzee, but that had just been practice for something he never actually did. He felt the steady sting of jealousy start to settle in the pit of his stomach, though whether it was brought on by the alcohol or his crush on Gamzee he didn't know. He fully acknowledged it was a crush, yes, but it would make things so awkward, so he just kept it to himself.

So he just sat there, legs crossed and hands in his lap, watching and waiting for them to finish.]

[Tavros drew in a breath when Gamzee kissed him, eyes widening a little, but only because he's just not used to being kissed and not because he was actually objecting to it. He didn't know what to do though! So he just laid there for a moment, heart beating fast as Gamzee kissed him in his weirdly sloppy yet gentle way. One of his hands drifted up and came to a rest on Gamzee's chest, grasping lightly at his shirt, because he felt awkward laying there just kind of lifeless, but he just didn't know what to do with his mouth.

When Gamzee pulled away and looked at him with that expression, apologized, Tavros couldn't help but giggle. Apologizing was silly! There was nothing to apologize for... Well, a few minutes ago he would have thought so. But past Tavros was silly. There was nothing wrong with kisses. They were kind of awesome, actually! Really awesome.]

Uhhh, don't be sorry, Gam... it's fine...uh, more than...fine, actually. Really, uh... fine!

Yeah? That's not what you said ... [No, he really doesn't want to go there. Not right now, when there's a warm feeling glowing in the pit of his stomach, making him feel all happy and squirmy at the same time. Kissing both of the people that matter most to him in the world; damn, he'd never even thought he'd get to do this.

The thought reminds him of his best friend, and his eyes flick up to Karkat, sitting there with his hands in his lap and looking kind of lonely.]

Shit, bro, you be looking like you got your saddest face on, kinda. [That's pretty much completely unacceptable, so the Slytherin pushes himself up on his hands and knees, crawls over to the smaller boy, frames Karkat's face with his hands, and pulls him into another kiss, this one deeper and more enthusiastic, since he thinks he won't get shoved away.]

~Forest of Depression~

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