See? This is exactly what he didn't want to happen. "But that.... that's not even, what I mean."

He sniffs softly, resting his arms on his knees and just wanting to curl up in the tiny little ball that his braces won't allow for. "You love Shinra... right? And he loved you?" Another pause, chewing hard on his lip. "No imagine if you, uh... just turn around one day, and suddenly you realize, that it was all a joke. Just some... fakey fake feelings because, of a cruel joke. No one ever really loved you, and you're all alone again."

Only now he knows what he's missing, actually feeling loved for the first time in his life and it wasn't real. That's the worst part.