It's honestly a good thing that he hasn't looked at Murdoc since throwing the punch, because it's likely he might've felt guilty despite it all. It's true, he hasn't nor has he really intended on hitting Murdoc despite being punched so many times. But that's only because every time it's happened, he's known he's deserved it each one. Murdoc deserved it, though. That he's absolutely sure of and that's what he's focusing on.
When Murdoc calls after him, he doesn't turn around. He can't. And as angry as he is, it hurts not to be able to. It hurts that it's turned into this and that he feels like he can't trust the one person he's been able to trust the most for months now. Even as he walks away, he feels lost and confused and just fucking hurt, and he doesn't know what the fuck to do. "Go to hell," he snaps, despite the hurt. Because he's just so fucking angry even with the sadness.
He's mostly angry at himself, because he feels like he got swept up in something that turned out to be a lie. He hates himself for that. He should've known that it was all too good to be true, that his happiness would be short lived. He just... can't see how they could possibly pull through this with the way Murdoc is acting.
Bro's trying not to think about that, though. Because if he thinks about it, then it's just going to hurt and he doesn't want to hurt in front of Murdoc. That's when the need to get away is just overwhelming and he can't even bother to get his laptop. He can get a fucking new one anyway, he just wants to get out. He turns on the spot, and he manages to get one last look at Murdoc before he does, and that's when he really screws up. Apparition is a delicate thing under the best of circumstances, but when the last thing you get a look at your bleeding (possibly ex) boyfriend, it just makes you lose focus completely.
Which is why he leaves a nice chunk of his shoulder on Murdoc's floor. It's going to hurt like a bitch when he lands, but it's nothing compared to the hurt he's going to feel when this all actually sinks in.
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When Murdoc calls after him, he doesn't turn around. He can't. And as angry as he is, it hurts not to be able to. It hurts that it's turned into this and that he feels like he can't trust the one person he's been able to trust the most for months now. Even as he walks away, he feels lost and confused and just fucking hurt, and he doesn't know what the fuck to do. "Go to hell," he snaps, despite the hurt. Because he's just so fucking angry even with the sadness.
He's mostly angry at himself, because he feels like he got swept up in something that turned out to be a lie. He hates himself for that. He should've known that it was all too good to be true, that his happiness would be short lived. He just... can't see how they could possibly pull through this with the way Murdoc is acting.
Bro's trying not to think about that, though. Because if he thinks about it, then it's just going to hurt and he doesn't want to hurt in front of Murdoc. That's when the need to get away is just overwhelming and he can't even bother to get his laptop. He can get a fucking new one anyway, he just wants to get out. He turns on the spot, and he manages to get one last look at Murdoc before he does, and that's when he really screws up. Apparition is a delicate thing under the best of circumstances, but when the last thing you get a look at your bleeding (possibly ex) boyfriend, it just makes you lose focus completely.
Which is why he leaves a nice chunk of his shoulder on Murdoc's floor. It's going to hurt like a bitch when he lands, but it's nothing compared to the hurt he's going to feel when this all actually sinks in.