[The hug is, of course, a huge surprise for Murdoc. What is being able to read situations? What is affection? He straightens and tenses the moment Dirk's arms wrap around him and he stumbles as he's pulled forward. It feels good, so good, but he feels so awkward. His arms are just hanging by his side as he stands there.
Yet, he finds himself leaning into it, his arms slowly lifting to wind around Dirk's back. Much better. Much more comforting. He feels ridiculous in a way, but safe. It's good to feel taken care of, he'd almost forgotten what it was like. For someone to care unconditionally when he can't give them anything? When they aren't obligated to? It's strange.
He wants to indulge it. So he leans in with the intention of burying his face against Dirk's neck. Only he misses and his face doesn't end up there at all. He's kissing him. Why is he kissing him. Their lips are touching and he doesn't want to pull away. He wants to unwind his arms from around Dirk but they only seem to tighten in quiet desperation. His brain is telling him to stop, but something far more instinctual is urging him to relish this moment and continue.
Nope. Nope nope nope. He jerks his face away, only to finally bury it against Dirk's neck. He feels like a god damn desperate teenager right now, it's pathetic.]
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Yet, he finds himself leaning into it, his arms slowly lifting to wind around Dirk's back. Much better. Much more comforting. He feels ridiculous in a way, but safe. It's good to feel taken care of, he'd almost forgotten what it was like. For someone to care unconditionally when he can't give them anything? When they aren't obligated to? It's strange.
He wants to indulge it. So he leans in with the intention of burying his face against Dirk's neck. Only he misses and his face doesn't end up there at all. He's kissing him. Why is he kissing him. Their lips are touching and he doesn't want to pull away. He wants to unwind his arms from around Dirk but they only seem to tighten in quiet desperation. His brain is telling him to stop, but something far more instinctual is urging him to relish this moment and continue.
Nope. Nope nope nope. He jerks his face away, only to finally bury it against Dirk's neck. He feels like a god damn desperate teenager right now, it's pathetic.]