[Dirk isn't even paying attention to that. He's focusing on the the scenery passing by from the window while he reflects on this. There's three people he wants to make proud. One is just a memory, and the other two are very real. They're the ones he idolises, who he wants to be like, who he looks up to in every way and doesn't want to let them down.
He doesn't want to start by them being disappointed in a childish fear such as this. Maybe if he could take hold of this determination, he could do this.]
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He doesn't want to start by them being disappointed in a childish fear such as this. Maybe if he could take hold of this determination, he could do this.]
I don't want to be a letdown.