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WHO: Karkat Vantas and YOU
TONE: light
RATING: PG-13 (for Karkat's mouth mainly)
WHEN: backdated slightly to April 22nd
WHERE: the library
WHAT: Karkat's doing homework and you're invited to bother him
STATUS: ongoing

Eighteen inches for Charms and twelve inches for Care of Magical Creatures. Who the hell set these ridiculous amounts of homework? Oh right, the teachers. If there was one thing about the school that Karkat abhorred more than maybe the lake or how long it took to get to class, it was the homework. Who the hell wrote in inches anyway? He couldn't count on his aunt to give him a good grade in Care just because they were related either which was disappointing but he guessed that was how things went anyway.

He'd been sitting there since after lunch, and he stretched, placing his head on his arms with a huff. This was ridiculous.

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[He's here.

Of course he would be here when she was doing research on a topic entirely unrelated to homework (she had already finished hers, naturally).

She remembers her promise to Tavros, of course she does, but just the mere sight of Karkat is enough to almost send her into tears when she remembers all the things that had happened...the things he had said and done...not just to her, but to Tavros as well. (Maybe to Feferi?)

Harley, you're being a wussy girl.

Jade knew that. She hated this weak and emotional part of herself. But it hurt, love hurt so much...especially when the person you liked didn't like you back. No matter how hard Jade tried to convince herself that it was just the same as before when she carried a torch for Karkat but felt he didn't have any feelings towards her, but they at least spoke to each other in a partly friendly manner. At this point they had not spoken in weeks.

Does he miss me?

Why would he? That's a stupid question and Jade feels stupid for thinking it, but she could beat herself up later. Right now she needed to be the brave hero and fulfill her Peter Pan promise to Tavros.

So, after many deep breaths and encouraging words (insults) to psyche herself up, Jade approaches Karkat. She tries to look casual but realizes that she does look slightly vulnerable with how she's holding her books to her chest as if to shield herself from him.]

...Hello.

Edited (I can grammar) 2012-04-24 09:03 (UTC)

[After the whole debacle with Equius, he'd been allowed to stay in the library only if he stopped attacking other students and kept his voice down. He was still reeling in the fact that he had to start his homework all over again when he heard her voice.

Karkat looks up, and to Jade he probably looks like a mess. His hair is bright ginger red, there's ink all over his clothes and the table (even though he'd tried to clean it up it was stuck there on the wood), there were angry red marks under his eyes, probably from where he'd been crying to himself in frustration in the bathroom. He rubs a hand under his nose, biting his bottom lip.

He'd been trying not to think about her, but he'd been hurt too much when she had taken him up on his suggestion and dumped him for Strider. His expression falters and he actually sounds a little like a kid when he speaks, instead of the kid trying to be an adult.]

Hey...

[A mess, of course. Who did he tick off now? Maybe somebody attacked him out of nowhere? He was plainly unhappy and hurt...

And I wasn't there to back him up.

Stupid.]

How are you--? [She shifts and shuffles the books she's holding, distracting herself from the idea of asking if he needs assistance with anything. Just get it over with as quick as possible, Harley. Do it for Tavros. Do it for Peter.

(Do it for peace of mind).]

Ah--um...may I talk to you? ...Please.

[He hadn't been expecting to talk to anyone else. Equius had probably gone and bragged about how he put a pukeblood in his place. Douche. Karkat shifted a little in his seat, unsure about whether or not he should talk to her.

Of course you should, douche. Just clear things up already.

He was confused but that didn't mean they couldn't talk. He wiped his nose with the back of his sleeve and a little sniff, putting his quill down and putting away his personal feelings right now.]

Sure.

Okay. I won't keep you long, I know you are busy.

[But she won't sit down next to him, that would tempt her to stay too long... A deep breath as she tenses, preparing herself for the topic.]

...I am sorry for what happened. When we broke up, I mean.

[Her knuckles turn white as she grips her books for dear life, keeping a steady gaze on Karkat as best she can.]

I was caught between wanting to help both of my friends...and I ended up helping neither of them and losing a third that is very important to me. I shouldn't have acted so rashly or said such horrible things to you...I was lashing out because...what you said hurt me.

[She can't, she can't look at him. She'll start crying. She can't stand the idea of crying in front of someone. But could she just duck her head or turn away from him? That was a coward's way out...]

And...I'm sorry, but...I still have feelings for you. Friendship feelings and romantic feelings...even if you hate me for the rest of our lives, I will still have these feelings.

[...She still had feelings for him.

His surprise and shock are probably visible on his face but right now he doesn't really care. His stomach twisted and the confusion he'd been battling for the last few weeks took another tumble. If he looked deep down, he still liked her too. He'd been lying to himself with Feferi, and God only knew what he was doing with Tavros.

He was actually a little relieved to find some part of him still liked her.

Karkat stood from his seat, rubbing the back of his neck. He didn't know what to say or do. Should he hug her? What did he do?]

...I didn't mean to hurt you. [He bit his lip, chewing it into his mouth.] Strider gets me frustrated to the point where I can't even fucking think properly, and Tav's a good friend...I wasn't thinking when I was talking that time.

[Like he ever thought about other people's feelings. God he was such a douche.]

I'm sorry for what happened, too. I...my feelings are all jumbled right now so I can't say if I still like you. I do! But...I'm just not sure right now.

[He still wanted to be friends!

He still liked her. He didn't want to break up after all...

Tears begin to slide down her cheeks, though she quickly takes off her glasses and wipes them away. The inconvenient thing about crying, however, was that once it started it was difficult to stop. Jade would try anyway, she would try her damnedest. For Karkat.]

Y-yes, Tavros...told me about what happened with you and him...in the sh-shack. If he is confused then--then you must be very confused, too! [A sniff, a hitch in her breathing as she holds back a sob.] I did not come here t-to force us back together, though, so...please do not feel like I am rushing you. Whatever you want me to do, I will do...just say the word. I...I am your friend, Karkat. I love you and I want you to be happy.

[Karkat gave a small groan when she said Tavros told her about the shack. He really was the worst secret keeper ever. But that wasn't what they were talking about right now. When she started to cry he didn't know what to do before he kicked himself into gear. He stepped forward and - a little awkwardly since he wasn't used to initiating them - wrapped his arms around her.

She fit. She fit right in there even though she was a few inches taller than him. It hurt, but he buried his face into her shoulder, taking a small breath as he tried to steady himself, his voice coming out smaller than he'd intended.]

Can we be friends again?

Yes. [No hesitation, it was what Jade had wanted ever since her angry feelings passed and she realized just how lonely it was with the Vantas-shaped hole in her life.]

I... [He even initiated a hug.

So caring. So sweet. She had missed that.]

I am here. I'll not leave you ever again.

[She said yes. You'd think he'd asked her to fucking marry him or something with the way his arms tightened around her. Taking a deep breath and sighing, he pulled back a little, glancing off to the side.

He didn't know what to say now. That whole weight he'd been carrying around since the stupid rap battle was finally lifted from his shoulders and he felt...lighter. He let himself smile, a bit shyly at that.]

I shouldn't have let my fucking anger get in the way in the first place. I actually missed having you around, Harley.

Hehe--hehehehe! I--I missed having you around, too!

[It's too much for any person to take, not just a fourteen year old girl, but still being able to talk with a friend again was almost like rediscovering how much you really liked someone and wanted to be friends with them in the first place. It felt wonderful, even if tears were still streaming down her face and her books had long since been dropped to the floor to return the hug briefly.]

Y-you know, after the holidays I found out some really excellent news...John's my brother! We're twins...all I could think about was "I bet Karkat would have some clever comment about this." Like...like "I'm not fucking surprised" or something...

[He tilted his head a little at her news, glancing off to the side as he considered it. He remembered Egbert blabbering on about something to Strider on the other side of the dorm but be'd been too caught up in his own problems to bother listening in.]

No. No, I'm not really all that fucking surprised.

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